ADRENALINE

I am fearful and afraid,
deep inside, envisaging wrong or right !!
whether to diminish and condense,
or to grow strong and undone wrong.


Adrenalin pumping through my veins,
Sending rush energy,electrifying pulse
I saw you gazing at me, my heart is pounding,
voices growing louder, blood going down.


Fear to loose you once again,
Ecstatic to find you once again,
I can't afford to loose you tonight,
I can't even afford to hold you tonight.


THUMP THUMP THUMP !!! Hammer and Tongs,
Oh my legs moving towards you,
how I thought it all laid to the rest,
but again came whipping in my chest.


Appalled, Revolted, Disgusted and Sick,
Shivers and Tremors on my wrists.
I come near you, I Try to touch you,
DARN!!DRAT!!, Not again.


Again dreamt, again hallucinated, life in a veil,
you meant so much , trying to make you trivial,
Pain and Gloom envelopes me again,
Smiling at the providence , nothing to bargain.


Instant was the rush and the adrenalin pump,
Accepting fate I trudged with a lump,
mockery and conspiracy of God & Destiny,
With only one thing i loved in my life Gone Away.